Even at Your Darkest

Seeking Beauty Beyond the Scars

Pieces 111: The Disposable Heart

Fingers glide over smooth scars, bleed from ragged ruins.

Paint me in blood red, bathe me in night air. Scream so long, so deep even God takes a moment to look.

Silken touch slips my heart into its angry hands. Don’t beat, don’t beat. Hang on until it doesn’t pump blood. Let it weaken then move it into cold storage. Keep it docile with exile. It no longer works.

Scoop out my eyes so I can no longer see the disappointment dancing in the shroud before me. Set my skin on fire so I no longer crave to be touched, burn me so pain replaces hope.

Drown me in the depths of my broken pieces. Avert your eyes In shame and embarrassment. Wrap me in barbed wire so no one will ever approach again. Take all of me and dispose of me.

One. Last. Time.

Flood Waters

August 15, 2016

Your tarnished halo betrays your angelic smile Flood waters to shift and blur and drown your accomplishments A new life to distract from what you abandoned Dreams like frayed tuxedos and rotting flowers Sickly sweet to cover the smell of your past Of your actions Saving others to placate that demon, giving him your … More Flood Waters

Mud Deep

May 24, 2016

Today I tried to dig you out of my brain. As I pulled weeds and lifted soil to create an aesthetically pleasing garden I thought of you and W. I longed to be able to dig memories of you out the same way. I wanted to dig six feet deep with only my hands, tossing … More Mud Deep

Demon Slayer Seeks Sidekick: Days 4 – The End

May 20, 2016

Days 4 – 16 Overwhelming. So many messages. So many how r u’s, so many sweet messages, so many what-are-you-looking-for’s. I feel guilty but I ignore the notifications for a few days. When I do log on I read a funny, engaging message. Of course, he ends up being insane. Talking to himself on Facebook … More Demon Slayer Seeks Sidekick: Days 4 – The End